Chichi-boheme

But sorry can't come close.

To all the pain you've caused.

All the hurt.

The endless nights of wondering.

Why?

what did i do?

All the fucked up mind games you played with me, it's over. 

I hope you know I'm never coming back.

It will never be the same...

I have people who sincerely give a shit about me,

More than you ever did.

I am part of a better family now, more caring than you ever where...

It was all about you, and you know what?

I'm done.

It's over.

And, No I'm not sorry.

So here's a hint... if I tell you I love you, and you're important in my life, or that you are one of my best friends, don't just take it for granted... because i won't come back... once you fuck up. That's it, it's over.


In other news! i got back in to writing my short story, it's called "Crush Crush Crush" i had started writing it a few years ago, and wrote the first chapter so i thought i would post it here xD

Chapter one: 9 to 5 could make your dreams come true
“Another day, another eight hours of my life wasted.” Angie pulled on her leather boots and sighed. Angie worked at the local Music for a song in Minot, her problem was her attitude. Her feelings toward life were “You only have one life, if someone or something makes you unhappy don’t just sit there and take it, take a stand. She was 5’7’’ and sort of chubby with beautiful blonde hair complimented by bright turquoise hair extensions and gorgeous green eyes, try to tell her she was beautiful and she’d laugh in your face and tell you otherwise.
“Shit!” “Oh perfect, just beautiful… way to go pea brain.’’ the hot coffee poured all over her brand new boots, and as if on cue her phone started blaring.
“Ye-I mean hello?”
“Angie? Hey. Are you planning on coming to work today?” her boss Elena was on the line. Elena was pushy; if you were fifteen minutes early for work by her watch you were late.
“Yes, Elena, as soon as I get this fucking coffee off my brand new LEATHER boots, I will be on my way, unless of course you would like to give me a new pair when I get there?”
“Ha ha ha Ang, just get here Austin is by himself this morning, I’ve got inventory.”
“Boo hoo, he’ll be fine, and besides it’s 12:00 I don’t have to be there ‘till 1:00” Elena fussed with a bag on the other end
“Thanks, have a nice day” Angie heard the bell ring on top of the stores door.
“Just hurry up.”
“Okay, okay I’ll be there in 20 Rushy McRusherton” she hung up the phone changed her jeans and headed out the door.
Truth was, no matter how much she despised her boss Angie loved her job. She loved music, she loved looking at the old CD’s people would bring in to sell, even though she never could give them too much money for them. They always were shit, and she was famous for letting people know it.
“‘Bout damn time you got here Ang” Austin was in his usual spot at the register, iPod and ear buds in hand, as usual.
“Austin its 12:45 and I have 15 minutes, besides boss lady ‘aint here”
“I know, I’m just bustin’ your balls, what’s up babe?”
“Oh, you know, the usual crappy ass morning, spilt a whole cup of coffee on my brand new leather boots, and to top it all off I work at this little store where all the people that come in to buy stuff have no music taste whatsoever” as she was saying this a customer was coming up to the register to buy a Miley Cyrus meets Hannah Montana CD. Angie just stared.
“It’s not for me, I swear” the customer who was, in fact, a man looked at her and panicked
“Sure Buddy, whatever makes you sleep at night dude.”
“Seriously,It’s for my daughter…”
“Look, don’t explain yourself just go man, it’s cool”
“Yeah, thanks”
“Gay” she laughed as he walked out the door, she loved messing with people like that, as if she cared what crappy music he liked, it didn’t make a difference to her.
“Really? Miley Cyrus? Are we seriously selling her shitty music?” Austin was famous for complaining about the music the store sold.
“I know, I think she is just getting famous off the fame of her hick father, god he sucks.”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah, there ‘aint nothing we can do about it, we don’t have to listen to it, just have to sell it” but the beauty of it was that Elena didn’t care what they said or did, as long as no one complained and the corporate manager wasn’t there.


Next; Chapter two: That didn't just happen

Well I haven't updated this thing in a while... i really should fix that...
Christmas is coming up :D and i still have yet to get anyone in my family presents, but i'm sure i'll get around to it... i always do :D but ummmm... other than that...
With Black Friday coming up in a few weeks, i get to work a 12 hour shift!!!!!
3:15AM-3PM!!! HELLO 5 HOUR ENERGY!!!!!! <3


other than that nothing else has really go on/ I have nothing on my mind that i really want to rant/complain about
EXCEPTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!

MY PS3 STOPPED WORKING!!!!! ::sad panda:: it just stopped reading discs D: i mean i tried EVERYTHING! CD's, DVD's, and the ps3 games themselves D: so unfortunately i had to send it in to sony to get seervice... here's hoping i get it back sooon! I just bought a new video game too, i bought BioShock 2 :D and now i can't play it

HAI GUYSSSS!!
wow, i haven't posted in a while, nothing has really go on that's really worth talking about, i'm kind of a boring person as of late... staying in and going to work, but i am still going to karaoke though :D

OH ANNNNNND I GOT A CAR!!!
It's a focus (SHOCK)
it looks like this:

^^ Yes i know it's a station wagon, but i LOVEEEE it :D
ANNDDD I GOT A NEW TATTOO!!!
It looks like this

^^ it's on my left wrist :D
and in case you were wondering why on my left, well they say the left arm is the closest to your heart, and music in the closest thing to my heart so, it's only fitting :D and as for the color, green is my favorite color :D
i love it, i love the color, the placement, and the artist did an AMAZING job :D

well for now, i guess that's it,
:D

Wow man, i haven't updated this thing in so freaking looooooooong, since the last misfits concert, in fact, which was amazing... but so much has happened since then, well... My mommy got another job :D working for the same company and everything :D
I no longer sell curtains,THANK [insert religious figure of choosing here]! i kind of miss it, but then again i kinda don't, the pressure is lessened annnnd i am still in the same department (basically) so i still work with the same people so it's not really a loss on that end. ummmm let's see... i'm going back to school :D I'm gonna get my certificate in nature and outdoor photography, GO MEEEEE!! Oh oh oh oh oh oh!!!!! I GOT MY LICENSE!!!!!! Right now i am in the process of looking for a car, lmao i reallllly like this one;


ORRRRRRRRRR!!!!!

^^ That one!!!
I think i may have to go with the first one though... it's cheaper... and i have no credit at all, and i would need a cosigner to get the Kia... the first one is a focus, so I'm not upset lmao...
In other news,
well there isn't really much else going on, 'cept I've been going to karaoke and singing my ass off on Thursdays and Sundays! It's fun :D and another thing, if you don't like randomness, rambling, ranting, bitching, and complaining, i suggest you stop coming here,
kthx XD

Man i haven't used "kthx" since like...Sophomore year hahahaha anyways later haterrrrrsssss!

So last night i went to see one of the best bands The Misfits :D
it was freaking amazing, we got there late due to a little traffic, or well, ya know, getting lost
which partly was my fault... sorry Ben lol but we got there in time to see three bands before they went on
Cab ride home
UsnKilled Proffesionalz
So damn thirsty
and here is how they went;

Cab ride home; Not really my kind of music... more death metal... sort of... but they put on a really great show their bassist was leaving the band, last night was his last show, and they had a really touching dedication and kinda explanation as to why, so that was cool...
Check them out for yourself: www.myspace.com/cabridehome

UnsKilled Proffesionalz; ok first, i don't know... or really care that i spelled the bands wrong, i had so many problems with this band, and none of them really involve their music, the first one; again not really a particularly good band, they only had one song that i liked but i will get to that later... second, i don't know what was wrong with their bassist but he was a fucking dick, during the song that i liked (car crash) they had a bunch of people come on stage and that was fucking cool but the next song they played this guy decided to come on stage with them, he was hanging out backstage btw. Then the bassist, this kid looks like he's fucking 16 by the way, starts yelling at him "get the fuck off the stage!" and shit like that. ok fist of all that is the one thing i hate, when bands have dedicated fans like that that love their music so much and all they do is treat them like shit, i mean seriously, those people are the reason you are around... if we didn't exist neither would you. So after i saw that it kinda went more downhill for me. i couldn't find their myspace...

So damn thirsty: So this was their "comeback" show :D i really love these guys, they put off such a good show, even if Timmy Pains' influence is obvious to any misfits fan, they are still awesome :D
Check them out for yourself; www.myspace.com/sodamnthirsty

And the there was The Misfits :D
They always put on an amazing show, my neck still hurts from headbanging and rocking out lol
at one point they dedicated the song descending angel to a girl named Summer who was murdered down in Florida and they haven't found him/her yet, so that was really swseet. Then there was when i got to meet.... JERRY ONLY... again :D
well first let me back up,
during the last song this chick with fangs came up behind me and was trying to see-so i being the nice awesome person i am let her in my spot, she told me she loved me and was really happy, then when the song was over jerry threw his wrist band to her WHERE I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE D:
BUTTTTT.... then he comes over and guess what he does? HE FUCKING GAVE ME HIS GUM!!!! I'm not kiddning, he gave me his gum!
Picture time;

^ see told ya! Oh and he also (sorta) signed that wristband
he also told me he liked me and thought i was cute :D
True story!

So in other news,
i have decided to start making youtube videos... i'm not sure of what but i wanna make some, maybe get together with cassie and get some ideas for a webshow :D

and YES! i am aware that this blog/post is complete grammar fail.

Seriously,
Maybe i'll start writing in my Degrassi fanfic again and i'll post some of it here,
Anyways so today i got to hang out with the cassinator :D we went to the mall, walked around for a couple hours then went and saw the new Sam Raimi flick "Drag me to hell" little did i know that it was SUPPOSED to be funny (before that i thought it sucked ass) it was pretty good though...
imma go and write or something,
until next time...

Psoriasis flare-ups, plain and simple.... i don't know if any of you know what psoriasis is but it's itchy, unsightly, and it SUCKSSSS!!!
i've tried everything, and it won't stop itching, and i can't scratch it because that'll just make it worse.
in other news; i'm up to a 12 gauge :D
here's the story, the other day i lost the o-ring to the 14s i had, so then when i woke up the next morning the one with the missing o-ring was gone... little did i know it fell out on my bathroom floor, but that's another story, so anyway i went to work with the taper pins in then i lost one of those too so i said fuck it and i went to hot topic and bought 12s, then when i came home and was cleaning my ears i found the other 14, then i dropped it down the sink....
so now i'm at a 12. Next weeks adventure: Stretching up to a 10 :D

SO, you've all heard of it... and now i've started, ear stretching or as it's most commenly known... gauging.
on Monday while i was at work i decided to go to Hot topic and i bought a 14 gauge stretching set that included the taper pin, basically a needle that you put through your ear to make your piercing bigger,
this is what i'm at now;

and this is what i might stop at

Hahahaha isn't he cute?
only sad thing is, right now he won't eat D:
hahahah he pretty much almost died last night when we got him back to my friends house and tried to put him in the pickle jar. it went something like this...
Me: ok we need to find Pedro a home
Nate: ::looks in the fridge:: ::calls out to jesi:: hey jess anyone gonna eat these last few pickles?
Jessi: No why?
Nete: ::puts jar on counter:: Pedro has a home
Me: YAY! ::takes bag over to nate::
Nate: ::trying to get the bag open(it took him like five/ten minutes to get the bag open::
then we were trying to put pedro from the bag into the jar, and then nate failed to tell me he wanted me to hold the bag... so the bag fell as did pedro (onto the counter) and pedro started flopping around..... then... he stopped flopping for like a second and nate slid him off the counter into the jar which had like a tiny but of water in it.
Nate: LIVE PEDRO LIVE!!!!!
Me: ::runs over to the counter
:: DON'T GO BELLY UP!!!!!!!!!!!
lol that was seriously the funniest adventure of the night lmao